Time with the boys

The last few days the work I have been working on PowerPoint presentations for the board meetings. So I have been over loaded and haven't done much at home. It is 6:47 pm and I feel ready for bed. Though I should get something to eat before I crash.

Over the last two days I have heard from both my boys and it was good to find out that they are all right. Yesterday my shadow was on and we talked  and kissed for a good while. I miss that boy so when he is not at my feet. Would have enjoyed a bit more but time ran out.

Then today my spirit was talking to me in IM. The boy was so horny. I controlled him in IM and as the time went on it progressed to voice. It was great to hear him. The excitement in his voice was intoxicating. What a yummy boy.The premise was that boy wanted to suck cock and I got after him for wanting someone else. Made him suck on a cock shaped dildo and fucked his ass with another one, not to gently. I did eventually let the boy cum, but then I realized I should have made him wait to cum since it was punishment not pleasure that was to be happening. I am just to kind to that boy.

My two boys are special. I will keep them for as long as I can. Would take both of them in a heart beat in first life. They are treasures.

Married Men

How do you begin? It is hard to explain how things feel and how thoughts go. Spending time with three different married men and it is the holidays. They have to spend time with their families. I am first to no one. I get the leftovers, which is very little time. Last year.I was DSH's world. Now I am alone. My boys are sweet, but I get the time that they do not need to be with their families. My time with them may end so quickly. Then I am left with nothing to do. I am stuck waiting for one of them to be free. So much for being a true Mistress. I am still accomidating a man, or men and what they want. Time with DAR is limited in the same way. When he is able to get away he calls or sends messages. DAR says he will be here but the date keeps backing up. DAR says I belongs with him and in his arms. But when? I really just want to roll over and not wake up for a while. Wake when DAR or someone was here for me.

Spirit & Shadow

Last night I got to see my spirit and my shadow. It was so nice to have both of them with me for a while. Told my spirit a lot more about myself. I did tell him I might find someone in the future, but I would always be there if he needed me. (Hum, wrong thing to say to a guy. To late now.) I promised my spirit that I would do what I was able to do for him. So little of this really has to do with sex. There is so much more than that; trust, comfort, rest...I am sure that there are others.