Married Men

How do you begin? It is hard to explain how things feel and how thoughts go. Spending time with three different married men and it is the holidays. They have to spend time with their families. I am first to no one. I get the leftovers, which is very little time. Last year.I was DSH's world. Now I am alone. My boys are sweet, but I get the time that they do not need to be with their families. My time with them may end so quickly. Then I am left with nothing to do. I am stuck waiting for one of them to be free. So much for being a true Mistress. I am still accomidating a man, or men and what they want. Time with DAR is limited in the same way. When he is able to get away he calls or sends messages. DAR says he will be here but the date keeps backing up. DAR says I belongs with him and in his arms. But when? I really just want to roll over and not wake up for a while. Wake when DAR or someone was here for me.