Don's "on the way"

It is really beginning to get me that Don keeps saying that he is coming and when push comes to shove he still hasn't. it would seem that i am not that important to him. - You make time for what is valuable for you. If that is really what you want it will happen. - So he doesn't want me but just someone to be there? I know that I don't get it. The old actions speak louder than words... what are his actions saying? I actually sent it to him and asked what his are saying...Don's comment "They say i believe in you and me." How can that be? I am still here alone.

Seems like all those old fears are true. I will die old and alone. The only thing I am good for is sex and not even that all that well. No one wants to touch me, let alone live with me. I am even unable to find a slave to own that would. .... Someone will only love me if forced to. I responded "I am not even worth visiting for a day or two." No visit in a year. No promise ring to even say he is coming. No help with finances. Three pictures and two CDs of his sermons.  Don's response, "U r worth way more than that".